1. |
Placement/Displacement
02:36
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I see you've taken to care for the streets
where I'd wander aimlessly for years,
and how beautiful those days now seem,
they were so mundane when they were here.
So I've come to find that no permanent setting
Is lucky enough to see a daily sunrise,
some environments wake as others take to rest
and I've yet to take to closing my eyes.
They've seen every night as a tightrope,
where I'd walk the thinnest line
between directionless exhaustion
and evenings wild and alive,
so when these situations shift
I'll let them carry me along
to the places where I chase this
fulfillment on the run.
I've never seen towns shine as bright as these
since they've been freed from their routines
and all the people that now occupy
are so warm and inviting.
We know that time has its limits,
we won't hesitate to take advantage of these minutes,
this life in our hands which was suppressed and shelved
when clocks offered luxury, now I'll spend all I have
so that I can advance
to a clear dawn on the horizon,
a tight grasp and a steady ground
where I discover every hidden facet
waiting to be found,
and every tangible experience I am able to collect
marked and checked across a sprawling map
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2. |
Safety Net
03:41
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Life has always offered enough complication
to give a man an excuse to dream.
He imagines solace and hopes for situations
that suspend themselves far beyond his reach.
I was climbing the rungs absent-mindedly
to the sun up above as it warmed my neck.
I fell through that vague intangibility,
that illogical prospect was my own empty promise.
Life has always offered such great potential
that those who seek it often overstep its limits.
They expect it to provide for the boundaries of
their imaginations and are scarred accordingly
with the blunt of its indifference.
I would seek out the most attractive opportunities
and wherever I would roam I just assumed there was safety,
but with a clash of ideals progress shatters easily,
cannot expect such a fragile thing to shift with flexibility.
Though life should always be met with courage,
it's with arrogance that a man does proudly set the bar.
As he is promptly blindsided by disappointment, he acts as if
he is undeserving to take that fall.
I would love to believe I deserve such a fate
where I achieve a level of happiness that suits
my desire,
but no guarantee is offered in holding expectations,
and no selflessness is shown in a race to acquire.
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3. |
False Projections
03:39
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With each dive into danger,
do you ever feel certain
you'll be able to pull yourself through
in the end?
or are you content to slip away
as the tide begins to rise,
knowing you'll receive credit
for simply diving in?
but who needs to know
you could never follow through?
no one needs to know
you could never follow through.
When you're singing some old song,
do you ever stop to think
about what all those clever words
are trying to convey?
how they lament over what could have
easily been?
all those chances you let slip
that won't return again,
but who needs to think twice?
just sing it right on through.
You don't need to think twice,
jsut sing it right on through.
Yet here you are eternal,
forever staining every mind
with elegance and beauty
before you swiftly leave behind
any trace of warmth or interest
that I could ever find
from that short-lived opportunity
to be one of your kind.
With each new revelation,
do you still grow discontent
knowing you can't hide
from all those thoughts that you prevent
from reaching ears that only wish
to learn and to grow close
to the ideas and perspectives
you're so privileged to hold?
but if you're discovered
it's best that you run away.
If you're discovered
you just run until you escape.
so as each soul hurries past me,
I can't help but to expect
countless more to lead the way
only to misdirect,
and I'll forever write off those
who grant so warm a welcome
only to grow cold with
the changing of the seasons,
and I'll have to leave to find more temperate conditions.
You'll ask me to leave to find more temperate conditions.
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4. |
Hunting for Sport
03:03
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sometimes you only wear a smile
so you can hide from honesty.
To enjoy each other's company,
we need to maintain stability.
We'll only grace the outer edges
of our personalities,
so that no one needs to recognize
the state of our fragility,
though we attack as hard
as they do back,
so no one could prove to be as innocent
as they would like us to believe,
we're an endless exhange of apologies,
and not one of us means harm.
often you set the standards
that cloud your perception of others.
you place them to play the part,
written perfectly into your life,
only for you to feel betrayed
should they decide to stray,
as if you could capture and lock
such restless souls away.
Though we're amused with the
thought of the chase,
at all the caustic statements
thrown with such haste,
that deny us from seeing past our
false perceptions,
we're an endless display of criticisms.
and not one of us means harm,
but god, would we like to believe it.
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5. |
Empty Evenings
02:40
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so disregard those fears
that have been plaguing me tonight.
raise your glass and cheer
to celebrate your changine life,
and once again inspire me
to examine what I've got.
I'm only pretending to need
the things I don't really want.
sitting in silent contemplation,
revelations don't seem kind
with all the friends that you had made
you would rather leave behind,
and in our heads this idealism
seems so intangible,
after offering such warmth
to minds left out in the cold.
Driving through the night
with this reflecting glare of lights,
apathetic voices saturate our
repetitious lives.
I'll be taking in the beauty
of the atmosphere tonight,
while breathing out regret
for opportunities not seized in time.
so remember the passion
that once burned inside my head,
I've been spitting out the ashes
to find relief from this weighing dread.
I would rather find simplicity
and compassion in these plans,
so could you please not hold me back
from being the person that I am?
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6. |
Image/ Imaginary
03:32
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I can feel my demeanor changing
with the faces in the room,
with my blurred sense of self
inconsistent and confused.
Shrug it off and stumble forward
into some awkward new plan.
Shrug it off in time to collect
some half-hearted experience that
won't ever be as meaningful
as it was when it began.
Potential dies as inspiration
washes from my hands,
and collect myself, there's so many
accomplishments to grasp,
or hold myself together
when I realize these feats are far too vast.
so I would calculate and I'd measure for years,
til my desires grew too tall to build.
watch them collapse and shatter,
I have never felt so free
wandering these ruins,
so vast and empty.
So I can be any person that
my mind imagines myself to be,
but the person I project
is not the person I can see.
Should I feel this helpless
if I can't alter perception?
Should I feel trapped within your
absolute yet inaccurate opinion
that I'm flat and one-dimensional,
that no more of me can be discovered?
A personality so predictable
it has no more to offer,
so much that I'll cave and slowly grow
into my introversion.
So much that I'm speechless in the
simplest situations,
so I write to capture
any pure thoughts that still ring,
as solitary echoes in my head
that repeat,
and spill the same desires
out onto a blank sheet,
some futile attempt
to purge all my shortcomings
and worries.
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7. |
A Mask
04:10
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Freedom is not what I desire,
for I am lost without constraint.
I am aiming for a greater understanding
to flesh out my days.
It appears without warning
before fading into space,
contained within an idea
or a song or a place.
It's really just a matter
of taking in the scene,
of appreciating elements
in their purest being.
Hiding behind a mask
of troubles and of dreams,
I never really felt
the rain or the wind.
It could be perfect,
refreshing or warm,
or bitter and cold,
the onset of a storm.
Still I collect enough
to say that I've lived,
that I never cheated the experience,
that I never hid.
It's a quiet afternoon where
soft jazz music plays, everything
feels renewed, I can't revisit the same
tired situations I repeat, and I replay,
and I can't examine outlines
of what I've already traced.
I feel old and I feel warm,
I feel directionless and bored,
I feel young and I feel cold,
I feel adventurous and bold,
for a moment I simply exist
at this table where I sit,
and I'm waiting for that open door
to bring whatever walks through it.
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8. |
Myopia
03:31
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Boxed in plots of land so carefully divided
host these hollow homes in which we resided.
Each passing day we'd try to catch the sunlight
as it raced away from this town and to another place,
some chose to leave and others had to stay.
I've been down every street,
driven through myriads of grey.
Any color that remains
quickly too will fade,
but on the outskirts,
I haven't a history or name
the boundaries around me
have always retiained-
they allow the hope to leave,
but won't let in the change.
so when you planned out your escape,
I couldn't help but to feel strange.
I couldn't grasp the manner
of the plans that were arranged
when you waited on that night,
but I never came,
and you left here in the morning
as I saw you drive away,
as you transcended barriers
I never overcame.
Markers track the distance,
watch the numbers slowly rise,
as they further drive a wedge
between our separating lives.
I haven't covered in my life
the ground you claim tonight.
I'm only hear to watch events
as they come to light,
but with no confidence in my actions,
my dreams are compromised.
but there's a fate to be met,
and there's discoveries to be made.
There's buildings to scale,
and there's maps to be read.
There's a feeling that was lost,
and a spirit to be found.
You saw it glowing in the distance
on the outskirts of town.
Fulfillment would be yours,
and fulfillment is yours now.
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9. |
Sensual/ Logical
02:10
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I am truly an introvert,
I hide all my true thoughts
by others that push forward:
pleasantries without substance
and half-hearted words,
they fill the right spaces
which allow me to converse,
cause I'm scared of the gaps
that are filled fast by silence,
an inherent loneliness I wish to stifle,
any conversation to get my fix
from slang that's deemed acceptable to fit.
and I'm damaged like you're damaged,
but when we meet we'll exchange expressions
that suggest that we're glowing and beaming with happiness,
because we'd both much rather see beauty,
or at least believe it exists in another,
cause if I can't find it in myself,
it's just gotta be in you.
so you're only a person that I think about
to escape from the boredom I feel with myself,
but I can't let you slip far too down in my thoughts,
become a permanent pattern with needs I can't help,
because we're probably not in love.
We're probably just lonely
and don't know what to do with ourselves,
and I know that you would make much better company
than anybody else.
So we can dance a few evenings, yes,
we can lie for a while,
and when you're tired and you are bored
I will let you take leave
because attraction's omnipresent
but that feeling, it is fleeting
and you've got years to chase it
through each new person that you meet,
til you collapse in front of
the last person that you meet,
exhausted in defeat.
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10. |
Surrounded
07:53
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The aging night left tired looks
on our faces,
so we followed lights that led us from
the unknown,
to evenings within these dimly lit
and dead places,
with the company we keep on their own
search for home.
We discussed all that we were waiting for
with the thinning room,
as people slowly slipped outside
to meet their aspirations.
We watched as our ideas
collided before us
and left us alone
with an indescribable connection.
How we'd create and arrange
our own shapes,
live within their creases,
refract the light they catch.
A scene so serene,
the beauty, it spreads,
and blankets surroundings
that stretch without end.
Your voice traces itself in circles
which permeate the darkness,
words that linger in the air
and lose themselves within simplicity.
Somewhere in these endless hours,
a night that cannot pass,
yet we cannot feel the darkness
that slips through our dreams.
we choose instead to follow the hope
that runs faintly beside it,
to breathe the air and realize
that we're still alive,
that we haven't yet forgotten
the value of redemption
if we can register this new morning
with our tired eyes,
where we can slide across
the cleanest of slates,
embrace the bright sky,
bleeding red.
a scene so serene,
the beauty it spreads,
and blankets surroundings
that stretch without end.
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11. |
Inverted Growth
04:02
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I'll conjure up my final spark of life
in some last ditch attempt
to send a flare out for help,
but to those on the outside, it's
just an innocent light,
it shimmers with warmth,
keeps their souls in good health.
and they can wait out the darkness
that remains until morning,
laughing as they dance across the night,
for they've at least another day
to love and to grow
before their color and vibrance fade
out of sight,
yet I'm left with a hollow container
that once held a spirit
that released itself and hangs
as a reminder overhead,
the fleeting nature of youth leaves
no option but to forfeit,
we've tried to revive it but
it's already dead.
and by dusk we'll be shadows cast
by some legacy we're far too old
now to clearly remember-
though we associate the sounds,
the smells and the seasons with
such lighthearted behavior,
such change and such passion
though now we sit without a purpose,
waiting and bereft
of some vague opportunity
or reason to take a step,
we grow content lying comatose
in a bed of unrecognized dreams,
playing back memories of better things.
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12. |
Safer Company
04:50
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We burned back the memories,
the characters of our past,
we discarded misconceptions
into a pile of ash,
and waved our hands through the smoke
which then clouded our eyes,
for no bitter end outweighs the
joys of a fresh start.
They say that these years are hard,
but really, which ones aren't?
We'll still gather at this table
to ponder the absurd,
to laugh it off and light a match
and slowly kill ourselves.
Death is numb to feeling,
and we need relief some time as well,
so I guess we're not alone
in the fact that we all die alone
and we all exact in failures
for every instance that we've won,
so what's there not to celebrate
if we've all walked through this storm
to arrive in safer company
of faces just as worn -?
We tossed back fears of leaving
those who were once reliable,
for we'd rather stumble awkward
than walk a straight line forward
to a new uncertainty we'd rather
believe to be escapable,
so we could drunkenly adapt to that
which we are most comfortable-
but clocks bleed and rooms, they thin,
it always feels like something's ending.
As we rise to say farewell,
we're never sure of our return,
for the courage to progress
is bestowed on us at random,
and a call to evolution
will forever lock this door.
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13. |
Narrow Pathways
04:02
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We're children lining street corners
holding cups forward,
waiting to catch knowledge
thrown like coins downward,
where only the privileged and
fierce competitors
gather enough for a fortune.
I've grown exhausted with the pull
of the crowd as we rush to each window,
just begging for help,
we receive raw information then
spit it back out and return
with our cups just as empty.
And tomorrow, we'll repeat
the process again,
we've no better ideas
for how time should be spent.
There's just one narrow pathway
that leads to success,
and we'll be damned if we're the ones
left for dead.
Soon we'll be influential men
working to ends with no means,
irresponsible expressions of
the power that we yield,
while God's on the top floor
of some office building,
pulling my strings for a paycheck
where all of the knowledge
I've had the pleasure to acquire
is cut open and condensed
til meaningless in dry
and the passion that I hold
for the interests I've absorbed,
it's not enough to earn recognition.
Feigned aspiration,
I can't keep up.
Rapid progression,
I can't keep up.
What is the life that I'm working towards worth?
I should have learned by now.
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